A bad session
July 19th, 2009 -- Posted in bad beats | No Comments »Just finished up 2 hours of comically bad beats and managed to only lose $192.56, so I’m actually pretty pleased.
I gotta really force myself to think positive about positive play and negative about negative play, and not about the results. It was at my usual tables, by the way. So I was reading a poker forum and I came across this post by an excellent player.
Well I just lost $1200 of my $1800 bankroll. I don’t have enough money to pay my electric bill. My mortgage is late and I just got sucked out on the river and 7th street so many times I forgot what its like to win a pot. I haven’t enjoyed the game of poker in 4 months. Don’t tell me to take a break either, I play about 10-15 hours a week now because I can’t stand to play anymore. Today was my first session in 4 days.
Most every session I quit poker pissed off. I have holes in my wall and a graveyard of broken keyboards under my desk from the frustrations of poker (and handling it poorly).
I’m an introvert. I’m good looking and I haven’t gotten laid in a few months. I spend too much time at home. I hate my life.
Poker players have gotten a lot better and the hold’em tables are drying up online. Don’t quit anything to be a professional online player. Ask my mother.
Playing for a living was great for about 4 months. I am updating and sending out my resume starting tomorrow. Good luck all. Put me in the “couldn’t hack it as a poker player” pile. Anything is better than this feeling. I have no idea why anyone would want to play this game all the time.
Wow. So if you quit your job and dropped out of college to play poker online, I could be kind of scary for you to read that. The truth is, like any competitive sport or activity, some make it, so don’t. The only way to find out is to try out.